Winter breeze...

The beautiful winter breeze is soon visiting our land
I can feel it close by when outside on the balcony I stand

It is my favorite place to be this time in the year
Its calm, peaceful, beautiful, and there's nothing to fear

I sit, cover myself with a blanket, and gather my every thought
No one can disturb the serenity, which is what i always sought

Its different this time, I find myself lost and confused
My thoughts aren't comforting anymore, I'm rarely amused

I know I have complained and battled my inner self many a time
I myself don't understand why I have fallen before i ever tried to climb

Its time that those who love me, give up too on who i can become
My discontent will push them away, To my mediocrity I should just succumb

I know that in the end, it is only I, who's expectations were never met
But no man likes to associate himself with a loser who wastes time being upset

Oh how I wish everything can be fixed in just the blink of an eye
That's how lazy I am, wishing for an easy way out, I don't know why

I fully understand now how no man has ever fallen for me
I don't blame them, Not even I can look at a mirror and stand the reflection I see

The problem here is that I'm smart and I know I can just fix it all
I don't need advice nor an intervention, I already got the wake up call

My greatest fear is my insecurities might cost me those i love the most
I have already become a burden, I'm sure they're already grossed

Its because of them I can smile everyday, and have a shred of hope and drive
Hope that someday I might be the person I want to be, the person that would strive

Meanwhile, I gather my thoughts on the balcony, hug my knees, and rest my head
Praying I can peacefully sleep tonight, hopefully without the help of any meds.

Say what you need to say...

You admire those who keep their feelings inside
You think they're collected and by the rules they abide

No matter what happens, the fake smile never leaves their face
Little do you know, the true delicacy of life they'll never taste

Their feelings exist but to themselves they're never true
They never seize their moments, not one, not even a few

They walk by their lives with many opportunities lost
Because they fear their actions might make them pay high costs

To them, its easier to be safe than risk ever being sorry
While in fact its fear not safety that takes over their story

They fail to make a move, yet make it seem a decision so smart
Which makes you seem like an idiot when you want to follow your heart

It confuses them, how much for the truth you're willing to lose
Ignore them, risk your life for what your heart tells you to choose

Always stay true, though its hard to stay honest, you should try
Say what you need to say, before the moment just passes you by