I have just realized what it really means to love yourself... For the past two years, I have been falling further and further down, hitting rockbottom only to find a newer rock bottom... It was SO hard, almost impossible, to decide to fix my life... I didn't know where to start... One day, I just decided to FIX IT!
Miracle...
The decision to fix my life, the drive behind this decision, has pushed me to happiness... I lost some weight, I remember how to study again, I am able to have FUN... el7emdelaaa... Life is good...
I have made many stupid decisions, decisions that put me under the 'pathetic loser' category... But I don't regret it... If i regret those decisions, its as if i'm regretting being me... And I love me... This is who I am... If I don't like you, I won't hurt you, I would just be indifferent... But if I love you, I won't ever be too proud to show you that I love you... I love my family, I love my friends, I love people... Even those who hurt me, Even those who dislike me, there's plenty of love here...
A month ago, I used to feel sorry for the fat girl that the mirror reflected... She disgusted me... I actually envied those girls who just had LOOKS, the girly girls guys liked, even if they were airheads and drama queens...
Now, I look at the mirror, I see ME... genius, strength, faith, loyalty, and a heart that won't ever stop loving...
The extra weight is fading away, and when that happens in a couple of months, even superwoman will have to watch out...
On April 24th 2008, my life broke into tiny little pieces...
On August 24th 2008, An angel put those pieces back together... And for that angel, I will always be grateful...
I can't repay my Angel, but I can pay it forward... And i promise that i will try my best to help anyone in need... I will always love people and consider their happiness... I also promise, that I will help myself first...
Goodnight;*
This year?
3 months ago
