City of Angels...

Shayfeen el movie?

I was listening to iris, goo goo dolls... oo awal marra i actually listen to the words... and I thought about the movie... An angel wanting to be human, wanting mortality... For love... I wish i could be one of those people who separate movies from reality... But I'm not... I believe in THAT kind of love.. The love depicted in the movie and shared through the words of this song... I refuse to believe that marriage and relationships are ma9ale7 and just a business deal... I will always stay true to myself, a fairytale believer, and i'm never gonna change...

Iris, Goo Goo Dolls:

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I dare you.

Today i was giving some motivational speech to my friend.. And i'm pretty sure it was a great speech... But for once in my life.. en9edamt by her reply..

She said: Do you actually believe eli g3da tgoleena? entayy urself are u met2athra mn hal kalam eli g3da tjarbeen teqne3eeni fee?

me: Yes.. oo I'll do it... I will Do something with my life.. ra7 a7el Moshkelti!


Awal marra eb 7ayati akteshef enni i'm full of shit... walla jadd... Who the hell do i think i am enni a36i advice oo msawya nafsi ana eli fahma edenya.. when in reality i should be looking at the mirror... agol 7g el nass "get over ur problems, rise, kick ur obstacles in the ass, you can do it.. and on and on and on..." While I, Myself, am the laziest person I know 7aleyan...

Bath3af... asawi rejeem bacher
Badres.. La a6ale3 show now adress bacher
Basawi cham meshwar... Wee maykhalef next week
Baro7 i visit yaddi.. la khalas in a couple of days
Baro7 el nadi... hmm chenna mako time elyom? bacher
bagra qesa... hmm chenna mali khelg, tv a7san

LAIN META?! Chan zain a2ajel my meals! chan atleast i accomplish shay! Bss fal7atli "anaaa KENT nerd.. ana KENT sh7elwi... ana KENT helpful... ana KENT and KENT and KENT.." ee lain metaaa 3ad?? magoooooool 7g nafsi ela

GET OVER URSELF!

Why are you SO AFRAID to GET UP and just start living?? Why are you afraid to work to ur full potential...?? (hathi el moshkela.. el potential.. el potential eli maskeeeen mawjood bss ma7ad mlageee wayh!) I'm sick of asking myself hal question 9arlii million senna.. MO LAZEM I GET HAL ANSWER ZAIN!

I'm not gonna say enni yalla i'm starting a new day with a new dream and a new goal and i believe in myself and all that crap! I'm doing one thing...

I'm DARING myself...

I DARE me to lose half my weight!
I DARE me to get a 4.0 on BOTH Courses this year!
I DARE me to fight for a humane cause!

You know why i'm daring myself? Because I never back down from a dare! Because there's nothing i can't do! Not only is this something i "can" do.. This is something I WILL do!

There's a quote by Marianne Williamson that i love...

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

I believe in what she said...
I believe in myself...
I believe in all of you...

and...

I dare YOU... to challenge yourself, face your fear, and hopefully help me face mine...